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JOHANNE Rioux

MY LIFE

I began taking drugs 30 years ago. I had always heard bad things about drugs and the people who take them. Deep inside me, I wondered what was so bad about them if I took them for my well-being. One day, I learned that in the beginning of time priests used drugs to get closer to God, to rise up spiritually. From that day on I knew that there was something good about these substances. It's all how you look at it. What I understood is that, used wisely, they can help you a lot. Out of my group, I'm one of the only ones still living. I think it's because of my confidence in life and my goods and especially because of my instinct.

I've known a lot of people who wanted to capsize, to take a fall, burn out, and they succeeded. Me, I wanted to understand, I wanted to analyze myself, I wanted to be OK while waiting to change my life path and on that score I succeeded. I didn't feel right in therapy with my upside-down ideas. I had to find my own way.

Now I know that whatever road I'm on I simply have to look at the bright side despite the negative things some poorly educated gossips might say. I am who I am and this is why I am sure I have the winning combination.

Mental Illness.

Taking drugs often earns you labels like paranoid, depressed, schizophrenic, etc. I didn't believe all that. We all experience reality differently. I read in the Bible that no one has the right to say that someone else is crazy. Everyone has their ideas, some people lose their way, they doubt themselves and the next thing you know it's over and often there are others beside them who judge them instead of bringing them back.

I saw on TV, it's strange, we no longer have any prophets. Some people think they're labelled somewhere, so many lives ruined by doubt and prejudice. My only message is never to doubt. Sometimes I might think I'm on the wrong path, but without doubting my great abilities. I can guarantee you that I will never let myself be labelled because no one is good enough to say who or what I am. That's feeble.

Crime.

I've been in trouble with the law. Theft, violence, Prostitution. I don't remember being ashamed of my behaviour when I realized that I was hurting truly innocent people my conscience arranged things so that I no longer did anything beyond my principles. By meditating alone about the things I did. I was able to without thinking

To what others think about me, I've been able to evolve and change my criminal behaviour myself. No one is criminal often you learn it when you are young that's when things happen. In crime, you must never go beyond these principles. When something inside pinches, it's time to stop and think and understand.

I lost my way when I was young. I wasn't in control of my own life. Now no one is going to lose me so they can finger me later. I'm much better raising myself up on my own.